The lost sister

She’s not really lost
Just gone

It’s been many years
Since I have seen or talked to her.

I am so afraid
To talk to her

Will she be bitter?
Has life made her a hard person?

I have so many questions for her.
Mostly, what she remembers
Of our father.

He has been dead for many years
Now at 37
I wonder.

I never knew him as an adult.
I was 13 when he died.

And I was afraid of him too.
I grew up afraid of things.

Only now am I understanding to be brave
And what it means to have courage.